Tuesday, April 12, 2011

First Response Test is Crap

Last night after exhausting myself running all over town getting "stuff done" including taxes sent off, and attending a couple boring meetings,  I fell asleep on my couch.  I awoke just in time to take my pregnancy test over to my friend's house, for her and her husband to "pronounce" upon. They are also TTC and were quite certain it was negative. Somehow I was not in the slightest bit concerned.

This morning I did another test, and it looked a little more convincing.  So much so that I showed it to a random girl in the parking lot, before my Beta.  She glanced for just one second and said "CONGRATULATIONS".  For the first time since starting this TTC journey I felt Amazingly HAPPY.

I was at the airport when the nurse called to confirm, my BFP.  She actually said I should not be going out of town, because they have to do 3 more tests at two day intervals.  (Well thanks for telling me ahead of time!).  I told her there would surely be plenty of time to worry about numbers when I get home.  I certainly don't want to miss my vacation, because I have to stay home and "worry".  If there is a problem I can deal with it when I can actually use "sick days" not Vacation days!

For now it seems my progesterone is good at 58 (have no idea what this means)  and HCG OK at 38 or 34.  (Nurse said it was a little low, but then we tested a little early).  Have decided not to worry about this - because I could clearly see a stronger test line from yesterday till today.

Turns out my Mom called me 5 times to see if I had the news (after acting cool as a cucumber all day yesterday).  So the whole world (around me) rejoices!  A strange man bought me a drink at the airport (I didn't have the right change)  and I got upgraded to first class.  I just can't believe it all.  Perhaps things will just fall into place easily for this baby?

Extraordinarily, it seems that three out of four of my (smartest) friends, can't read a simple pregnancy test! One line or two - not so simple!  But then I really do think the test is CRAP. Sitting in my first class seat, I texted as many people as I could think of before the plane took off!

I realize its only 50% chance that this pregnancy makes it (as I am 40), but I am determined to enjoy every single second of it while it lasts!  And I am just loving enjoying my first day Knowing I am PREGNANT

Ok now for advice - Can I swim in the ocean (Caribbean) - feels perhaps a tad cooler / or like a swimming pool.  Not cold once you are swimming?   Nurse said, sort of no "you shouldn't even be out of town"

Can I eat soy protein?

What about a little gentle yoga - standing on head ? (for 30 seconds - is all I can do before I get wobbly)?

Ok, so now I got my BFP, I am throwing the bouquet. Next persons TTC reading this (who leave a message) get simply TONS of baby sparkles!

Post Script - Either the Dr Uncommunicative hates me - or her nurse hates that I'm taking a vacation - I just received the following "Your beta hcg level was 38.4, Estradiol- 425, and Progesterone- 58.0. You will need to call us with a return
date so that we can schedule a repeat blood test as soon as possible. Dr. Uncommunicative does feel that you may be at risk for early bleeding and potential miscarriage. Please, feel free to call us with any questions or concerns, congratulations"  What kind and caring and helpful people!


  1. ACK!!! I'm so excited! Congratulations!!! And enjoy the heck out of your vacation!!!

  2. Oh wow!!! I am thrilled for you! Have a wonderful vacation and keep thinking those positive thoughts. I can't wait to hear more when you return. Yay!!!!! *shaking pom poms for you like crazy*

  3. Oooh! That's great news. The progesterone level sounds great. I wouldn't worry about the beta numbers either. You can't really tell much from the first one. The doubling time is what matters now.

    And now you can enjoy your vacation in a completely new and different way! ;-)

  4. That's the worst message ever. You may have a miscarriage... congratulations.


    anyway, congratulations FOR REAL on getting a BFP!!! whatever else happens, you have achieved that!

    and i don't think that beta sounds so low... it's whether it doubles that matters.

    PLEASE try to enjoy your vacation! regardless of what happens with the pregnancy, you will be needing that vacation time under your belt.

    ps swimming in the ocean is FINE! i wouldn't linger too long in a hot tub, though.

  5. Congrats on your BFP...but what an awful message for your Dr office to send...try to enjoy your vacay & enjoy being pregnant!

  6. Wooooohoooooooooooooooo! Congratulations! I'm SO happy for you!

    As for yoga - no standing on your head, or other inversions and no hot yoga. Otherwise, do whatever feels comfortable, and avoid anything that doesn't feel right.

    And seriously? What the hell kind of message is that? I think that a vacation right now is EXACTLY what you need. Allow your body to relax and focus on growing your baby and your placenta (my sister spent her entire first trimesters telling everyone she was "growing an organ"), not stressing out about potential miscarriages. Sure, miscarriage is a risk for all of us, at any time, but even more a risk for those of us who are "older". But like you said, you've got to enjoy every moment and milestone as it comes; life is too short to spend it focusing on the potential negative outcomes.

    And, I'm as giddy as a little girl, I'm so excited! We need to go out for celebratory pastries or something when you get back. :)

  7. Dr. Uncommunicative and his nasty nurse should be nicer and a whole lot more supportive. Wishing you the best for your vacation and pregnancy!

  8. Congratulations!! I am so excited for you!

    As for swimming... I was banned in my first trimester but it was because I was on crin.oine (I think that's how you spell it - progesterone up the whoha) and the water would "wash" it away. I went back in the water the day I finished and have not had a problem. In fact it is all I got left now besides walking.

    Yea!! Definitely enjoy vacation. I am SO jealous sitting in another rainy, gloomy day in NYC.

  9. HUGE congratulations to you! Enjoy your holiday and enjoy basking in your wonderful news. :)

  10. OMG! I just read the update. What an asshat that nurse is. Why couldn't she just have said something like 'take it easy' and 'come back in for a repeat beta when you're back'. Honestly ...

  11. Congrats.

    Enjoy every second of your vacation and your pregnancy.

  12. Yahoooo!! Congratulations, mama!!

  13. I am anxiously awaiting updates, and likewise cannot believe someone would say that about a miscarriage. Jerks. PLEASE just remember that IF a miscarriage does occur that they are SUPER commonplace, and that it would most likely NOT be because of something like standing on your head or going in the hot tub or eating soy or whistling show tunes or flying; but I am sending you baby dust and happy thoughts!!!

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  15. congratulations!!! very exciting. Don't let the dr and nurse's attitudes bring you down - enjoy it!