Monday, August 26, 2013

surgery is awesome news!

Having tried 3 natural IUIs with No success my mother was  insisting that there "must" be something wrong - not with my eggs (age 42.5) or with my hugely elevated FSH (around 17) or my lack of AMH (0.16) but with my uterus.  We did do a few ultrasounds mid cycle which showed nothing - and apparently polyps do not return too frequently!

Before I got pregnant with Sage I had 3 failed IUIs and then we found the uterine polyp - and Sage implanted on the next try.  So my mother insisted I must have another polyp.  At my last check in with Doc uncommunicative I requested a sonohystogram - Uterus filled with water on ultrasound.

Today we found a polyp just as my mother suggested.  Makes me feel so much more hopeful.  The Doc said she would try and fit me in her operating schedule on Wednesday, failing that after my next period.

She also said I could try the surgery without general anesthetic - I assured her that last time I lost my memory for weeks and didn't want to go through that again.  I asked her how much worse it could be than natural child birth?  She thought not - and will only last about 20 minutes.  I do plan to take 3 ibuprofen - and we might try to have an anesthetist on hand that is used to routinely doing  epidural!

Other news, we moved house at the weekend- to a better school district (and I have to get my moneys worth and make sure I get my second child).  The new house is the thing of which many people could only dream.  I woke up and saw three Bambi in the garden.

Two neighbors came over with gifts fitting a movie script.  One of these included 10 different gifts all of which I adored, cheese plate, crackers (gluten free) cheese board of the most gorgeous wood, cheese knives,  honey, honey dish, honey dispenser, gorgeous woven basket,  divine grapes, raspberries, and a gift for my daughter.

Back to unpacking boxes, and trying to get the printer to work!

Friday, August 16, 2013

Dr Uncommunicative changes her tune!

Apparently miracles do happen!  She talked, she listened, she explained, she debated.  After all the efforts I had made to switch to the other clinic in town, I have decided to stay put.

I even learned something new, because I requested that they split my donor vials of sperm so I could do double the amount of "try's" before I run out of Sage's donor.  

Every time I have gone in for my insemination they have given me a sperm count - 27 million, 75 million, etc.   But what they were actually quoting me, was sperm per unit (centiliter ?) - and in a vial there is only half a unit.   The time they told me 20 million was actually only 19 and a half - so I was delivered less than 10 million sperm and would have qualified for a rebate from the sperm bank - because they are supposed to deliver a minimum of 10 million!

So i had to explain the importance of communication.  I then went forth and told her how in this regard I should actually explain that when I got pregnant with Sage - I didn't exactly take the drugs quite how they were prescribed - and gave my reasonings.  She took it great, and with interest.

I explained how I took only 2.5 mg or femara rather than 5,  earlier injections of gonal F (didn't say I had consulted with 3 other RE's), and my reasonings for wishing to take less ovarial next time (I felt it nearly caused my ovaries to hemorrhage.)  I then explained how I believed that the progesterone supplementation had not been good for me - she agreed to test me when / if I get pregnant, and supplement me with some other form of progesterone should I need it.

The whole visit was extraordinary.  I don't know What has happened in her life to make her so different, but I liked it and decided to go with the flow.  We also ended on a very upscale note when she explained to me how important it was that I do stop doing natural cycles because of the percentage  of people she see's with no obvious reason for infertility, and the first time they do a medicated cycle they get pregnant.  She explained how the boosting of the hormones increases  the blood flow, and just makes it happen!

I felt very lucky because so many of my SMC friends get the "oh you are old your eggs aren't going to work" speech.  I know I am 42 - and that I will go to donor egg if my two medicated cycles don't work (still debating an IVF).  But I might as well be positive till I see how it works out.

The the icing on the cake - was that my clinic is very soon going to be partnering with one of the largest donor egg banks in the world - so I won't even have to leave town for a donor egg cycle!

The only thing holding me back at the moment is that I am packing boxes and having a very stressful time moving house.  I could write a whole blog on this alone - but i won't bore you guys with it here.  The only thing it means, is that I am actually quite pleased to be sitting out another cycle, so i can not be quite as stressed.

Had a 36 hours of hell, and then suddenly the world shifted and everything seems like it will be OK.