I was so nervous about this first ultrasound I could not fall asleep for my obligatory 3 hour afternoon nap. The doc was late but finally arrived and she got her magic wand in place.
Truth be told I have been feeling so awful recently, that I have sworn to myself that I will never ever try to get pregnant again. There is just something about feeling constantly sick and exhausted that makes any life seem unnecessary and pointless. I think I may also have been a little depressed. I have spent most of my hours lying asleep in bed or comatose in front of the TV or trying to think of ways to avoid doing anything.
My only other activity has been that of praying for TWINS - call me naive - I know they are a huge amount of work. And I have just figured out that if there was a fire in my house - it would be very difficult to run out of the house Fast with Two babies.
Anyway - It seems God has better sense than I did. It appears that I have One Healthy Baby - I am greatly relieved - and it may even arrive in time for Christmas. My mom says I should be extremely thankful I got such a cheap blessing - total costs so far (excluding unused sperm in storage) - is only $3700. I am SO happy I didn't have to pay for IVF. But it is such a pity I didnt have three - one for keeps - one to give away - and one to sell on ebay!
I am of course so overjoyed to know my dream of being a mother is coming true - Dr Uncommunicative wants to see me again in two weeks, which will be just a week before my nuchal scan - I can only imagine it's about the money. She did manage to tell me though that the heart rate was normal at 161 - and give me two ultrasound photos. However for anyone not experienced in these sort of things - it really does look like a receipt from the supermarket gone wrong - so much so that BABY has to be labelled - you would not know it otherwise. None the less I am growing very fond of the photos - and no doubt in a few days I with own nothing with more sentimental value!
In the mean while, it all seems so unbelievable. Actually the last few days have been feeling substantially better and I have found that ice cream definitely reduces the nausea - and remarkably I still have one pair of jeans that fit me just fine - but not for long I think!